MAY THE WORLD BE HEALED
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and the winds of hope shall dawns .ᐟ
| INTRODUCTIONS
美月. Greeting. This is MIZUKI (美月) speaking and I am the one behind Eithnea Adna Lehninger.
I will very much appreciate it if you read the points I made in this section before getting to know her.The most important part is, I would like to declare that this is merely a work of fiction. Therefore, it is created with the aim of simply having fun (no malice or any sort of will intent intended) and to write/roleplay only with no connection to any parties or whatsoever, including AI/SNO or PATH TO NOWHERE, with no financial profit were gained.
As mentioned above, I would also like to ask you to pardon any mistakes that may have occurred. I am not a professional licensed pathologist. Although all of the medical stuff is written with a lot of research and based on my limited knowledge, I am still someone with the capability to do wrongdoings and make mistakes. You have the option to correct me through DM, or to simply pardon it.Next, I would like to kindly ask for you to refrain yourself from doing any sort of metagaming or godmodding when interacting with Eithnea unless I gave you permission to do so. Additionally, I would also like to add that I don’t accept random followings and therefore will not give you a follow back for a random follow.Last but not least, If you’d like to write together or have a storyline in mind, my DM will be open for discussion. A spontaneous starter will also be accepted with love. As for familial and romantic relations, I have no intention of doing that through discussion. Familial relationships are off limits and romantic relations are only HEAVY chemistry based.That’s it for now. I hope you will enjoy writing with me and Eithnea. I hope to see you soon!
| SHE, THE ONE THAT THE WORLD SEES.
Her name is, Eithnea Adna Lehninger. Was born a female and indentified herself as one under the sky of Grand Rapids, Michigan, at 15th January. Come from an Irish-American family and is 168 cm of height.
People recognizes her from her tresses of purple-ish hue and an icy gray colored irises. Somewhat aloof, yet soft and compassionate.
A Doctor, a holder of the MD, Ph.D title after years and years of hardwork and hardships. The lady is now a renowned Consultant of Neuropathology. And that comes without saying that she works in the medical/biopharmaceutical field. Often being seen with a small smile adorned in her tiny face or a blank expression with a soft gaze.
| OCCUPATIONS | DOCTOR, NEUROPATHOLOGIST, Medical Researcher |
| AFFLIATIONS | PROJECT: HESTIA BIOPHARMACEUTICAL | ACE MEDICAL CENTER (Venom City.) |
| ADDRESS | Madison, Wisconsin | Clubs District, Venom City. |
| HER, IN A CLOSER LOOK.ㅤㅤ Eihnea had always been regarded as highly inquisitive. A soul filled with turbidity and storm that never ceases in the battleground of relations called FAMILY. The chapter of her childhood may not be a peaceful one. In a big household with no warmth to share, Eithnea grew up in a way that forced her to harden her heart and kept her inner child locked. Throughout the course of her early life, Eithnea learns the hard way that nothing would prevails eternally--people could change, and the closest ones can hurt you--which later become one of the core reason of her individuality; to only rely on herself.This habit stems in every of her mannerism even as a grown adult of not being able to properly convey her feelings which leaves herself to mull over her feelings and thoughts alone and thus heightened the weight of it herself. Eithnea may not be expressive, but the weight of her emotions is deep with compassions she pose for her beloved patients and people she care for, and it is carved in every of her work and actions.Despite having the difficulties in expressing her feelings, Eithnea can be somewhat open in giving affections, especially to those she holds dear. Spending her life in a mental solitude makes her ... internally crave for a company--how she wish she could have a child. Would be a bit shameful to say that she really wishes she could have a child... and that wish manifested itself in her having a soft spot for everyone younger than her, an instinct to nurture and to guide, showing the hidden maternal side to her such as being a great listener and understands a child like how a mother would. Though sometimes what is on her mind while listening would be more focused on giving them solutions and honest opinion on a way to solve the problem. But she knew, a child grow with time as their catalysts, as she, even in her late adulthood, does.Being a doctor herself, a profession destined to be a lifelong learner to save the lives of others, Eithnea is accustomed of the habit of prioritizing others before her own in the sense of emergency and it roots over the course of her adulthood. Resulting in the harsh way of how she would take care of others in need before her, and prioritized others in terms of the lack of rest in a profession that refused to humanize those who are still human, and how it has developed in a way that she will always set her own problems aside, for the sake of a greater good.Though Eithnea may have never think herself as one, Eithnea is a very empathetic individual and this quality of her comes naturally after seeing many losses and deaths among her patients, and then experiencing grief herself. But, at the very least, the best joy of life for her, is seeing her patients getting better and seeing her companions healthy and in a good well-being.
If her restlessness would come to the greater good, to the one that would led others basking in the blue sky of happiness, she'd persists even if it comes at her restlessness for the sake of her patients.
| THE WIND THAT BLOWS BEHIND HER.
She hails from a renowned family of prominent businessmen. The lady was born from a marriage made of proposed business contracts and was initially raised to inherit her family business. Gifted with a high-intelligence, Eithnea possessed a unique way in navigating her ways and certainly a distinct view of the world. A questions that she holds for the world are numerous, many and uncountable.The wind of her life had blows from the very start of her life. The loss of her parents, the beliefs owned by her extended family, Eithnea survived them all with her beloved twin brother--Initially.Ethanael, the one she believed to the one who understands her the most despite being constantly compared, betrayed her when she was very young, following their grandparents who favored Ethanael over her.The moment of blankness, the time when she hardened the shield of her heart, was hers to experienced throughout her adolescence. Eithnea ended up being an arrogant youngster who is knowledgable and proud of her rationality, truly like a human with no heart.BUT NO ONE KNOWS WHERE THE WIND WILL BLOW FROM.Eithnea started to learn the warmth of family from Aunt Eleanor and her husband Her father figure. Aunt Eleanor’s husband, was a surgeon. His line of work had invoked something had remain dormant as the result of the past hellish years.Perhaps, being one, would bring her a sense of pride, the sense of usefulness, and maybe the idea of being able to find something to soothe the emptiness. Nevertheless, the young Eithnea liekd the idea of becoming a doctor.Following the years afterwards and many events unfolded, Eithnea returned back to the United States of America, undergoing her pre-med studies in the University of Pennsylvania and later pursued her medicine degree in the John Hopkins University School of Medicine.To Eithnea, at this phase, life is a series of betrayal and learning, it doesn't matter if she were to be crude in the process.
whereas in solitude she finds peace
But what does years of solitude creates when there were times when she longs for warmth? What does the meaning of being alone holds? What does her grief and sorrow holds for others? What would her world means when she holds nothing but grudges? What would occur if the fire ignited had burnt out? And what if it was her dearest ones in question?And her journey, had flipped her views. As she relearns about herself and the story behind everything; the more she finds out; the more she thinks differently. The more she knows, the more she understands that not everything had to be opened and known; not everything had to be questioned. Like how her strivings in silence shall remain untold, there were things she finds it better to be concealed, and things that would be better, away from the concept of right and wrong.Life is a two sides of coin, with black and white; lawful or not, but could everything remain as such when there is an equilibrium that must be retained? Life is complicated, and in between her hardships to grow, and to work, Eithnea lost the spark to learn more for herself; her focus to learn had shifted. Now, being a doctor with a complicated minds, with the weight of life and death on her shoulder, could she still purely think only of herself when the life of others matters?A dove, fly for wonders, she takes flight and ride the wind to see the world, only to be humbled by the sights of reality.
___In the end, we were all human with tiny courage to soar, and the big sky we seek turns out to be a journey to understand oneself, and I had mine.___IN THE END, IF LIFE IS A SERIES, THEN IT IS A SAGA OF BETRAYAL AND DISAPPOINTMENT, ACCOMPANIED BY THE JOURNEY TO FIND ONESELF; A JOURNEY TO SEEK FORGIVENESS AND PEACE IN ONESELF.
| AND THE FLOWERS OF HER LIFE WITH THEIR SEEDS ETCHED AS WARMTH BLOOMS.
Aku bukan orang baik.
Aku tidak pernah merasa bahwa aku adalah orang baik dengan ribuan kehangatan yang terpancar, tidak seperti para manusia humoris nan lucu yang menggemaskan. Merekalah bintang-bintang kehidupan, sedangkan akulah bayangan yang mendambakan cahaya.Aku tidak lain dari bajingan yang mencari ekstasi sementara dunia. Kesenangan yang bermunculan bagai kabut dan asap berwarna; hanya beberapa detik mereka hidup sebelum pergi diusir angin. Dan pada akhirnya kegembiraan fana itu hilang dan lenyap.Aku ingat betapa terbuainya aku oleh posibilitas yang disajikan, yang kemudian berakhir dengan rentetan aksi impulsif yang akhirnya mengubah hidupku dan cara pandangku terhadap semesta.Bahkan ketika aku kembali ke titik nol, aku tidak khawatir tentang uang dan pekerjaan. Uang selalu bisa dicari dan aku masih dapat bekerja. Terlebih dengan kemampuanku, bukankah banyak hal yang bisa aku lakukan? Dengan lisensi yang dapat diterima meski tetap ada berbagai penyesuaian, aku tetap mampu melanjut hidup sembari menanti panggilanku.Tetapi tanganku tidak bersih.
Aku telah melakukan banyak hal. Dari sesuatu yang masyarakat anggap normal sampai suatu hal yang dianggap keji dan tidak etis–semata-mata untuk alasan yang tidak jelas. Aku melakukannya sebab aku percaya ada hal yang lebih besar menanti.Aku tetap manusia yang tidak luput dari kesalahan. Ada kalanya rasa bersalah menggerogoti, tetapi dengan menjawab pertanyaan dan melihat perjuangan manusia, aku tidak hanya ditundukkan oleh beratnya ilmu, juga oleh berbagai esensi dari ilmu kehidupan.Aku telah menjejaki bumi ini selama tiga puluh enam tahun. Berbagai skenario telah aku lewati, dari hidup berkecukupan dengan balasan sanak keluarga yang mengoyak harga diri, sampai ke situasi di mana aku hidup dipenuhi hutang biaya sekolah kedokteranku yang secara kebetulan diringankan oleh beasiswa yang aku terima.Aku hanyalah budak dari pemilik pengetahuan yang abadi–pemilik kunci jawaban atas terdirinya alam semesta dan segala hal yang terjadi di dalamnya–dan sudah sebagaimana aku tunduk pada-Nya, maka sudah sepatutnya untuk aku terus mempertanyakan dan mencari makna dari kehidupan yang terus bergejolak. Namun, bahtera yang menampungku tidak lagi berguncang hebat. Seolah-olah ada angin yang mulai bertiup–membawaku dari kanan ke kiri–dan melindungiku dari ombak besar yang hendak menerjangku.Pertanyaan-pertanyaan tidak lagi memenuhi benak. Topeng yang semula hadir karena upayaku meniru perilaku Tante Eleanor kepadaku itu telah perlahan retak. Hati yang dindingnya keras bak batu kesombongan itu telah melunak. Kompas moralku tidak lagi kabur. Hal yang semula berwarna kelabu itu telah secara perlahan menjadi beberapa porsi dengan batas-batas yang jelas.Aku berada di ambang kebingungan atas sesuatu yang semula aku anggap remeh dan tidak penting untuk menjalani hidup. Pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang kerap aku tanyakan pada dunia itu semakin kehilangan esensinya. Aku kembali dibuat paham bahwa hidup tidak hanya sebatas bekerja dan memenuhi nafsu, terlebih ketika aku mengerti bahwa akan selalu ada hal yang lebih besar dari sebatas tahu dan tidak tahu, dan konsep benar dan salah. Karena tidak selamanya yang otakku anggap benar itu baik untuk yang lain dan hal yang otakku anggap salah itu selalu menghadiahkan keburukan.Semua orang memiliki ceritanya sendiri-sendiri. Semua orang memiliki rahasianya sendiri-sendiri, dan aku pun begitu. Pertanyaan yang semula terlontar karena penasaran, solusi logis yang menyakitkan untuk didengar, dan orang yang datang dan pergi, aku tersadar bahwa dalam kesendirianku ada kalanya beberapa hal lebih baik dijaga untuk tetap lebur; dijaga kebisuan dan kerahasiaannya.Manusia hidup dikelilingi cinta, baik disadari atau tidak.Mengapa baru akhir-akhir ini aku semakin menyadari bahwa cinta tidak pernah hilang dari hidupku? Sebab dalam apapun—amarah yang melekat dan kedamaian hati—cintaku pada diri sendirilah yang membuatku maju; yang selalu ada dan menemani langkahku dari tahun ke tahun.Dan dalam kekecewaanku terhadap politik dan isu dunia, melihat banyaknya nyawa yang telah melayang dan berlalu-lalang; mereka yang aku gagal selamatkan dan perasaan bersalah yang menggerogoti hati, cintaku kepada kehidupanlah yang menjagaku tetap bersyukur pada prosesku memaknai hidup; yang membuatku meletakkan harapan pada dunia yang kacau balau.Perasaan yang semula aku anggap sebagai konsep yang kabur bak kabut, itu ternyata hadir dalam bentuk rasionalnya pikiranku. Aku akhirnya paham bahwa aku masih memiliki hati untuk menjalankan semuanya. Karena jika tidak, maka aku sudah lama mengoyak semuanya tanpa peduli dan membiarkan diriku dalam kegagalan. Tidak ada aku yang belajar semakin giat demi menyelamatkan pasienku, tidak ada aku dengan penemuan-penemuan lainku yang menghasilkan pengobatan yang lebih baik.Ketika aku membuka dan mengingat kembali rekaman lama di hidupku, pada setiap bagian-bagian terpenting yang tidak pernah aku buka kembali, aku baru sadar bahwa selalu ada cinta yang selalu membuatku bergerak.Meski itu semula hadir hanya semata-mata menghadirkan rasa bangga, pada diriku dan yang lain.Baik untuk menjadi anak yang baik Tante Eleanor dan Paman Ren yang telah pergi, baik untuk menyelamatkan nyawa yang masih bisa diselamatkan meski dengan jahatnya juga aku akan menahan seseorang pergi sebelum alamlah yang memisahkan, dan baik untuk keinginanku untuk menjadikan dunia tempat yang lebih baik, meski hanya sedikit.Tetapi pada akhirnya, dalam batas yang semakin jelas dan ketidaktahuan yang terkadang lebih baik dijaga itu, aku menyadari bahwa aku senang untuk keluarga-keluarga pasienku yang turut bahagia dengan kabar kesembuhan kerabatnya, aku senang hanya dengan tahu bahwa orang lain masih memiliki teman dalam dunia yang luas ini, dan ada balasan setimpal untuk penyakit yang menggerogoti jantungku; untuk letihku yang tidak terasa manusiawi.Dalam enigma bernama kehidupan, banyak momen di mana idealisme atas dunia yang diidamkan oleh para pelajar di dalam buku-buku yang mereka tulis itu runtuh dan harapan yang aku gantungkan untuk dunia pun hilang, tetapi aku kembali berjuang—untuk diriku dan yang lain—sebab cintaku pada mereka yang telah singgah dalam hidupku adalah abadi.Pada akhirnya, aku telah bertekad untuk memaafkan orangtua kandungku dan didikan mereka yang dilapisi racun, memaafkan Ethan yang telah jauh berubah sebagaimana kita tidak lagi saling memahami, memaafkan sanak keluarga dengan berbagai nilai yang tidak aku yakini, dan memaafkan diriku atas kegagalanku menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik; untuk setiap kesalahanku yang terbit dari sesuatu yang aku salah pahami.Pada akhirnya, kita hanya manusia tanpa hak untuk menghakimi orang. Kita hanyalah insan di hadapan Dzat yang agung dan yang Maha Mengetahui. Bila hidup adalah serial, maka ialah saga penuh pengkhianatan dan kekecewaan, disertai dengan perjuangan mencari maaf demi kedamaian diri.
HER BEFORE EVERYTHING. | HER SHIFTING VIEW OF THE WORLD. | THOSE DEAR TO HER.